Dear Life

Dear life
I dont know how to explain this, or where to start, walking in your branched way trying to play my useless part. Without a complain, I acted my role, I watched myself dress up as a pathetic doll. Life, I want to announce my weakness to both your night and morning, I want, for once, to detect your line of warning. I am tired of wetting my eyes, I am tired of falling for your lies. I heard how you are to people unfair. How you draw colors of white and black. How you created wars, blood and tare. How you stole many but never return them back. Life, I still remember the first moments I met your glowing light. I was hopeless, blue, and you gave me air to breath. That day, my mom held my body so tight, but you owned it's beneath. She whispered that you going to make me suffer, that you going to battle me day after another, that you going to procure my desires, my wishes, that you going to stand in front of my ambitions, that you going to exchange my pureness with mistakes that you going to hurt me excessively that the heart badly aches. She said horrible things I couldnt understand them then. With time, I kept replaying her lullaby again and again. Life, I knew you werent an enemy or a friend. You carried secrets that led to hidden treasures. You were, in my view, a book without an end that wisdom no scale could ever measure. Life, we agreed that you set for me the ultimate rule, after that you decided to build up an army out of sea and stones. Then you punish me for not following, for being a fool, when am just a creature of flesh and bones. You taught me lessons the hard way as I grew up, each lesson told me more about your limits below and above. I learned how to cry before I could talk, I learned that I should try before I could walk. Suddenly I learned love can or can't exist, it's either a bliss or curse. I learned in you there is no twice, I learned that you play a game with a dice, every step took a piece of my heart and without a heart I became an ice. Slowly I sold my soul without a price. There is no point living in the darkness without a guide so I give up on you with everything I carry inside. We clearly know that I am compared to you small in size. Your experiments had winkle what used to be my skin. And now, I am leaving by committing the greatest sin. More than anything, I learned that I can't change my fate, not today, not tomorrow; no matter how long I wait.
Life, I once was old, adult and an innocent kid
Life, please forgive me for what I knew and I did
Life, I might be accepted in the world of dead
I am honestly sorry, but its time for me to stop your threat
Sincerely,
A human