I am gay but not happy.
i want to change but i still like men.
my mind always reminds me
to act like a real man
but i have no strength to change.
i always keep in my mind
that i am a man
but i still want to stay with a guy.
i hate myself
coz' i can't do what my brain wants.
i am sad
that i always disobey my brain.
i always listen to my heart
but my heart now is so quiet
'coz my brain won't allow another stupidity.
i want to use my mind now
'coz my brain knows what is right for me.
but, it is hard to fight your own feelings.
it takes a lot of courage, strength and patience.
