Heart Broken by the love of my life

Once again Heart Broken
Crushed like the snail I stepped on yesterday
not able to breathe and not able to feel once again,
I'm crying throughout the day more
cutting to ease the pain
but it doesn't help at all;

I don't eat!
I throw up a lot but nothing falls aside from stomach liquid
the only thing I do is sleep,
I'm try my hardest to move on
yet I can't cause she was my heart
but now she's gone
so I'm once again getting ripped apart;

I have no idea what to do
I'm lost once again
not able to find my route cause of the blood on the map
I can't even find my razor in my tears that surround me
I feel that my end is coming soon,
My heart wont stop aching
my thoughts wont stop thinking about her
I want her back!
but I don't know if she wants me........

I can't keep going on if my heart wont stop bringing pain
I try what I can
I give it my all
but now what's the point
I lost what meant the world to me!
She was everything I could ever dream for
but she's gone now,
Ya we are different so we argued
yet why do we have to be apart because of arguments
I feel we could have worked them out
but I messed up by saying what I said,
I hurt you without the intention too
you hurt me the same without intention
now all out of no where it's enough and you leave?

I can't believe it!

Love,
what is it really
is it just words to tell some one
then hurt them and leave when they make a mistake?
or is it some thing to cherish?
I really don't know what it is anymore
and honestly I don't care at this point,
My heart is broken to the point where it can't be fixed
some one could try
but the only person I want to is her!!!!!

Dedicated to Brittany Danielle Grub
was going to be Brittany Danielle Figueroa <3