My Doubt

My doubt!

I look into the distance

Not a tear down my face

When I feel my sister die

A million miles away

Not one person notices my pain

Even the ones closest to me

Only one thing stands in my way

Of doing that unspeakable thing

My faith that is still in God

And as strong as always

So I look to Him for answers

That no one else can explain

In a little while I'll feel better

I have some things to figure out.

What do I get her for Christmas?

What do I do on her birthday?

When is the day I will see her again?

Whom do I give my loving advice?

I look to God for the answers

But yet unexplained

My faith as strong as ever, among all things

Who am I to doubt my Creator-

Only his imperfect creation

Doubt brings me to that one question

But I dare to ask anyone.

What kind of God would take away my one and only, the one I care for?

I know the usual answer is and always will be

It was just her time to come home

But there is always that speck of doubt

That I worry will get in my way.

But my faith is still strong

that's how she would want it

She wants the best-

She wants God's way to be my life.

Today is the day I plan to end the doubt.

To stop thinking it was all of my fault.

I will always remember her very last words were spoken to me. The very last words of her short life.

"I will be your angel!"

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