Suicidal thoughts

What is this?
Who is this?
What have you become?

My heart pounds
My eyes widen
My hands start to shake
As you sit on top

My heart pounds
Like a knock at the door
Not the soft little knocks
But the banging at the door

Tears fill my eyes
and pour like rain
My cries are like thunder
Everyone can hear
Everyone can hear but you!

You told me we were forever
You told me we were for always
You told me we were forever and always

I can't breath
I really can't
Can you get up and let me be?
Will you please stop hitting me?
Why wont you stop?
Can you even hear me?

What is wrong with me?
Why do I attract the bad boys?
I am a girl
Who loves with all her heart and soul
I am a girl
Who can't stand people like you!
So abusive
Make me think suicidal thoughts

Make me think about my body
All cold and lifeless
You make me picture myself
Walking to the edge
Standing there not looking back
You make me picture
Myself walking to the edge and
walking off without looking back.

My heart pounds
Tears pour out of my eyes
My cries are like thunder
You are like the lightning that
Scares everyone
Not soothing
But scary
Beating me
Giving me Suicidal thoughts
Walking off the edge without
Looking back.