Thought about you when I was 14,
With someone who was everything to me.
Four was the number we got,
Took thought on it alot.
But mom and dad fell apart,
it broke momma's heart.
That you four wouldn't exist,
the plan dissolved like a mist.
Even if your daddy didn't want forever,
he still said never.
Im sorry momma had to mess up,
She kept drinking the sinner's cup.
Momma's dream crashes,
and her heart burned to ashes.
I always wonder if you'll have your daddy's beautiful brown eyes.
Always wanted to hear your beautiful cries.
Wondered if you'll have your momma's button nose,
Always dreamt the day to tickle your lil' toes.
Momma wanted to hold you tight,
wanted to keep you safe with all my might.
But before your life even started,
you were already departed.
Momma will take the blame,
I will be put up to shame.
You would have still been a plan,
if momma didn't go for that other man.
I wanted to hear your voice,
but now I have no choice.
Names were given,
always hearing the voice within.
Could it be you, my baby?
maybe I'm just going crazy.
The pain just keeps getting me sippin on my beers,
now days are quickly turning into years.
I'm sorry for this,
For sure you'll be terribly missed.
I think about it everyday, So i picked up a pen.
Happy birthday, love you whoever you woulda been.
Happy birthday.
