Suicidal Truth

by Second to None   Aug 23, 2009

I want to be honest on how i feel
I know you want to help me heal
I don't want to bring you down
I'm forced to turn my frown upside down

I don't want to break your heart
I know you love me from the finish to the start
I don't want to hurt you by telling you how i feel
But my depression i have is real

I want to tell you why i act this way
And why i have to force myself out of bed everyday
My heart is so heavy with this pain
And i take it out on my vein

The truth is i think of death every single day
If i told you this what would you say?
I know you very much
I can tell every time we touch

Because i love you i don't want to tell you
You think i am perfect and true
The only perfect person i know is you
I want you to see things from my view

The truth is i don't know how much longer i'll be around
Suicide is starting to have a better sound
I want to live and just resist
But i don't want to live like this

**this is a poem i made to tell my boyfriend about my depression. but i don't think i'll ever have the guts to show him. :(**


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  • 10 years ago

    by BraidhairCutie

    Wow. This piece is so "real" i know exactly how you feel. This poem really stands out. Love it!

  • 10 years ago

    by Joyous

    An emotional piece! Full of sadness and depression. I liked the 4th stanza. Somehow it make me feel so hopeless when I read it. Very nice. Got the rhyme got the emotions... 5/5? why not?

    Honey you have to be honest and tell your bf. Guys are not the tapeworm that lived inside our body! They won't know what girls thinking if we don't tell them! Oh except for some...hmm...ya maybe some guy is opposite but anyway its better if you let it out. We've to share! Especially in a relationship. All the best to you!

  • 10 years ago

    by SolemnWish

    Im on kind of the same boat as you.
    Depression, the occasional slash, and the every now and day pot session.
    I can completely relate.
    I felt your pain on the page and it spoke to me.
    Sometimes telling someone is the best thing to do but other times you just need to let out a big scream and let your pain flow.
    Every moment in life is a chance to turn it all around. Go ahead and cut and smoke but don't rely on those things as crutches as you go along because they will only help you to fall and fall and fall. Until theres nothing left to break. Amazing poem. 5/5.
    Im dealing with depression now so if you need to talk or anything, you know. We are all here to help but its better to ask for help from a person that knows your situation.

  • 10 years ago

    by Italian Stallion

    Nice write with a good rhythm and rhyme. Keep up the good work.

  • 10 years ago

    by Em

    I've had a few spurts of depression so I can relate, kind of. Good piece. 5/5 x