Not That Im Counting

5 weeks....
Im not counting the minutes,
But my life is passing by
Without you in it.

How many times I have
picked up my phone,
Opened "create message"
Then sighed all alone...

Its like someone took
The stars from my sky,
Turned the whole world black
And put tears in my eyes.

It gets no better
As time ticks away,
Every morning I miss you
Every night i still pray.

With tears on a pillow,
And a loss in my soul,
An ache in my heart
I feel so alone...

And its not that im counting
Yet its 5 weeks today...
And i still cant express
how i feel, in any way.

So I hold it inside..
And i take it to bed
Crying into a pillow
Where you once...
laid your head.

*August 2009*