Even Now

Even now i still sit reflecting
In stillness, all alone...
Even now, i still cry myself to sleep
Fighting back tears all on my own.

Even now I can be somewhere,
Or anywhere at all...
And even now its pains me
As our first kiss i recall.

Even now i wonder....
As i sit alone in the world
Why you didnt hold on tighter
To this sentimental girl.

Even now, i know,
Deep in my heart and soul,
That i have lost a piece of me
And im no longer whole.

Even now i lie awake
Sighing, crying as i sleep.
Even now, i still feel stranded
Its as if my soul does weep.

Even now, i stil have a pain
Deep deep inside my heart,
That i carry with me everywhere
Since we had to part.

And even though i dont tell you
And the whole world thinks im fine
Even now, and ever more...
Inside me, i have died.

*August 2009*