Its nothing like I thought it would be... it hurts so much that now I just don't care... about anything. Do what you will because you went and you broke my heart. You had me crying on the floor for way too long. You�ve ruined me and all I could become. I�ve turned into a bitter and cold person and it's all the doing of you. And well I guess this is goodbye. But there's something about this that makes it okay. I cared way too much before to even give a shxt now... I won�t even cry; infact I�ll laugh. Because that's who I am now... the sick and twisted person that hurts everyone... just to try and even out my pain. So; so-long I bet your glad you left me behind. Well so fxcking am I... I�ve never been better - nothing hurts now and its bliss. But I�m sure if you went right down into my feelings it would shock you that I was capable of feeling that. Inside I�m crying, so much. You ruined me. I love you but I guess that�s not enough, it never has been. So good fxcking bye. Thanks a million.
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went through a massive rough patch in my family about 7 months ago until recently and this was what i felt about my mum. but its all sorted now. kinda.
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