My lost love

I know that i hurt you in the past.
i know that you were blue.
i wanted to make this last.
for both me and you.
i know that i messed up
but now i want to make it up to you.
don't tell me to screw off
just hear me out.
i want to make things better
but instead my face is getting wetter.
every tear i shed i shed them for you.
every memory i keep replaying but that only makes things worse.
i see you and i look away.
because i don't want you to see me cry.
no matter what i do it was never enough.
now i see you and you look happy.
i hope that you never have to put up with what i made u put up with.
i hope that she makes you happy.
i ma with him but its not the same .
i only wanted to be with you.