Look Within

I was once a prisoner enslaved by my own lies,
trying to stay positive but every dream I've known dies,
from the surface i look calm only cause you don't hear my lone cries,
you cant witness the pain the struggle I've seen through my own eyes,
you only see the discontinued happiness the fake smile i put on,
but if you take a look into my soul you'd see I'm not so strong,
you'd see me stuck quivering because i am alone,
out of luck shivering because all my support is gone,
laying beneath a foundation cracked by unfaithful friends,
their act transparent rooted with hateful skins,
feeling insecure suicidal thoughts getting stronger,
struggling to find the light cant fight the pressure any longer,
out of breath as i move farther away from my destiny,
striving to push forward but this dome of negativity got the best of me,
restricted to envision joyful sights i have yet to see,
wondering where my effortless steps are getting me,
feeling like its time to give up,surrender,simply roll over
not seeing any progress except for the fact that my heart continues to grow colder,
losing all perspective stuck in a race with time,
surrounded by darkness in a solitary state of mind,
failing to fulfill prophecies as well as expectations,
unable to reach for the clouds apparent loss of motivation,
vision distorted actions are slow,
spirit still crushed head remains hung low,
unfortunately,this nightmare is a place i call home,
this mindset is hopeless but its all Ive ever known,
its also a world well hidden yet somewhere Ive always been,
and it will remain eternal unless you take a "Look Within"