Watch me bleed my sins.
Feel my veins stiffen with anger and regret.
Just don't look into my eyes,
Because I'll start to cry.
I hate the sting and the pressure.
I hate the feeling of always being a disappointment.
I am sorry I am here.
I am sorry that everything you dreamed for me failed,
I am sorry I failed you.
Is wanting to be myself that hard?
Watching you not seeing me just kills me.
I get the nerves.
I start to shake.
I never wanted to.
Please.
Just stop me from shaking.
Take me somewhere new.
Take me to heaven.
That glorious place above me.
A place where I willbe accepted.
Where love is always around.
Where I can be with you forever.
Never ending.
And thinking this makes me in a rush.
To get there faster.
And that is when I start to shake.
