The note

Dear Mom,

I know you're reading this because you are so damn nosey. But by now I have left to see a few friends, or so you think. I lied a little, I headed out on my way to see them but decided to take my life on the road. I know this perfect spot to crash. I've actually been thinking about this for a while now. Decided today was the day. I would be driving alone and my friends wasn't expecting me. So I traveled along the road, picking up more speed once I got closer to me destination.. I did this because I couldn't take my life any longer. I didn't feel loved or wanted. I felt unwanted and used by all of you. Thanks a lot, you guys drove me to this decision. My friends were the only ones I felt happy with. They don't know but I considered them my true family and my rock. I often visited them just so I could be happy. But I grew tired of only being happy when I'm with them. So I realize this was my only way out of my painful life. I will surely miss them a lot. But I had to do this. I'm sorry I didn't let you say your last good-byes. But its better this way. So no one could try changing my mind.. To my friends I'm SORRY truly! I loved you all. And thanks for being a part of my life. Sorry I had to do this. XOXO