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Sitting here thinking about you
Thinking about how you were here
And thinking about how you're now gone
this has me in tears
i can't seem to find the words to express how i feel
to describe the emotions
oh how poor mum must feel
we are richer for having had you in our lives
this i know and this is something i will forever treasure
i think of the memories we all shared
the laughter, the tears
i realise now that i have been to busy to truly grieve
trying to be strong
hold it together for the others, for my family
i hold so much guilt for things that were said
things that never got to be unsaid
i know that you loved us all and that you forgive me for being a typical teenager
i know you were proud of me... of the life i have built for myself
i saw the pride in your eyes as you looked at your first grandchild
i saw the excitement (and also the worry) in your eyes when we told you we were expecting twin boys
it saddens me that you never got to hold them
never got to share your invaluable wisdom with them
i truly believe you are the reason cody pulled through the obstacles that were thrown at him at only a few days old
thankyou dad for being the best possible guardian angel and making sure my little boys were alright
thankyou for having being my dad, my hero...
and until we meet again it is time for me to finally say goodbye.
RIP Dad, your memory will live on in our hearts forever xoxo