Fearful Pain

All this sorrow,
all this pain.
My life is meaningless,
a simple game.
Im about to crack,
& shed a tear.
Each second goes by,
my pain turns to fear.
I just want to cry out,
prove how i really feel.
I want to bleed,
to show its real.
Make it go away,
I dont wanna cry.
I'll put a smile on,
hopefully its a good lie.
Every minute passes,
im close to crying.
My fear turns to nothing,
im simply slowly dying.
What's wrong with me,
I feel like your leaving.
You say its ok,
but its hard believing.
I just wish to cry,
let out my pain.
Let it flow hard,
like the pouring rain!
Make them stop,
they're making me cry!
Oh God, please stop,
I dont want to die!!