Not Apart of Me

by kaylajoyx3   Oct 24, 2009


Old wounds open
Young hearts bleed
When the pain feels it will succumb you eternally
Am I really a part of me?

Everyday life does go on
But I'm still enraptured, overcome, distraught
By a love that was
Once really not

I create false dreamlands
Where everything I'm not
Appears to others what I really am
I desecrate all that I've got
For the one who only forgot

As I drift at a constant speed of going nowhere
No one takes my hand
I'm a vicious heart murdering creature, surrounded
Still venturing out into no man's land

Deceived by two forms of me
I never know when to stop
Which one do people see?
Which one can I believe?

Am I anything?
False realities destroyed more than my dreams
I destroyed all that I love
Including me

As I'm forced to trudge on through this vacant land
All I feel is a tempest raging in the distance
I'm struck by lightning, for a second bounded to the land
I float towards the sky

No one dares to take my hand
Now I'm finally a part of me
The heavens divide what once was
And protect me from empty love

Both of me finally pull apart and live distantly
Still, I'm forever lost in the dreamland
soaked and bloody, everything comes at me at once
No one dares to take my hand

All I am are the scars on my wrist
And the love that touched the palm of your hand

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  • 16 years ago

    by anand singh

    First let me say thank you for reading and commenting on my poem of faith.I'm glad to know that it is reaching so many who still have a part of their hearts set on our Lord and savior Jesus Christ.

    Your poem has touched my heart and brings a tear to my eyes simply because in it I could see that there is an abundant of pain, hurt, and confusion in your life.

    Old wounds open
    When the pain feels it will succumbs you eternally
    Am I really a part of me?

    This stanza tells me that there is many things in your life that you have suppressed over a period of time and suddenly gushes out so much that you question your existence.

    Every day life goes on
    But i'm still enraptured, overcome, distraught
    By a love that was
    Once really not

    Of course, life will go on but if we do not realese the heavy burden resting on our minds, we will forever be trapped.
    I know it's hard to move on after a friendship or a relationship failed especially if that relationship was on false pretense.

    I will skip the other stanzas as i'm pressed for time( Working) and will get to the last one which I think is very important as the others.

    Both of me finally pull apart and live distantly
    Still, i'm forever lost in the dreamland
    soaked and bloody, everything comes at me at once
    No one dares to take my hand.

    Well my friend I have to say this.There is one person who is always willing to take our hands and comfort us in our darkest moments, but, you have to invite him in your heart.
    He is the one that when you wipe away a tear, at the said time he is wiping his for he knows your suffering and he cares, but won't intrude for he knows you have a mind of your own.
    I'm glad that you commented on my poem which lead me to yours and though sad, you,ve expressed your deep emotions very well.
    I will read more as time permits.
    Take care and do have a wonderful and safe day/evening.
    Paul Anand Singh.

  • 16 years ago

    by Samuel Dimafelix

    You know what while im reading this im thinking the dreamland. Hahaha
    im n0t good commenter but this is n0t a l0ve poem but i l0ve this piece. Keep it up

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