Razorblade kisses 2

I did what you asked of me.
I threw my blade
in the breeze.

Just like you, i have
my struggles to. she
helps me threw my
depression,with straight
succession.She never left
me deprived or empty.

She never stole
my heart with her
last breath, she
didn't tear me apart.

You ripped a hole
that lingers deep
inside my soul.
You say its the order
of life.

I understand,But did
you have to use your knife?
You use your tact to justify
your means.I only react
with a empty stare.

With your cold smile
and empty eyes, you laugh
at the tears flowing from
my eyes.Your so tempting
like a heroine addiction.
I used you like a prescription
to dull my pain,instead you
shot straight through my veins.

I wouldn't ask you to understand,
But i await her kiss.She only
gives me the high i need to get
by.