I'm ok

I try to keep from crying..so i wear a fake smile...
i try to hold my head up, but it keeps falling down.
"honey whats wrong?", nothang i'm ok
i want to just scream out.. but i'm ok is all i can say.
its not easy searching for happiness trying to stay away from what makes me sad,
but i feel like i'm forced to cry and scared to smile, i don't know what makes me happy all i know is the bad.
i'm laughed at pointed at and i get attacked.... and for some odd reason i just smile back.
Not a smile that proves i'm happy but a smile that hides pain,
so when someone ask whats wrong i say nothang..but i'm ok.....