I'm sorry, mommy was dumb.

This is how i feel,
I'm sorry that i was being irresponsible and dumb,
& you had to pay for what mommy had done,
I wanted you so bad!
but my mom wouldn't let me keep you,
she said everyone would judge me,
& she didn't want that kind of embarrassment,
your daddy didn't want you at first, but in the end,
don't hate daddy for not wanting you from the beginning,
I'm sorry i let them kill you,
she made me choose,
and i didn't know what to do,
i love you, more than anything, even though I'll never know you,
you were worth everything i went through & everything i would've went through,
It's so hard to be around pregnant woman or talk about babies or being pregnant,
i miss you so much, 5 months i would've been already,
fly high mommy's one true love. & I'm truly sorry my angel. I LOVE YOU.