Subtle. desperate. infancy.

Help, I plea
and nothing more
than subtle
desperate
infancy.

break the paper cup
and then
bring me down from my high
again.

hurt me more
each time,
some more.
each time a little worse
than before.

breaking, breaking
my heart, my heart
subtle submissions
poor useless heart

hurt me more
further and further
kill me kill me
on the floor
spill me, spill me
out the door.
walk away
need no more.

good-bye ex lover
good bye never-friend
my head is floating
away, again.
i'll wait forever
not 'til the end
will this all finish
we shall make amends.

cover me with feather
down, down, down.
pressed up against
a peaceful no-sound.

my eyes will shut
my mind slips away
cold, dark, profound
kill me kill me,
this you may.

escape the life
which i called "my life"
nothing more
than hurt and strife
bent towards destruction of me.
end this subtle and desperate
infancy.