Would You Live When All Hope Is Lost?

There's a smile on my face but i don't know why it's there, i just put it on to satisfy people i don't even care.
people tell me i'm strong but when do i break down when the lights turn out and when the doors close?
i lock reality out of my room and sit in a peaceful solitude that doesn't exist. what's left is a broken heart trying not to fall apart.They tell me they can't help me
then how am i suppose to help myself? it's like silent screams echoing my throat,wanting to say something,
but this pain can't be put to words.what happens when i wake up and the nightmare just keeps going? A tear may roll,fall,crash or burn,but in the end.it always ends up wiped away and forgotton Maybe it's easier this way.Maybe they'll all just forget as i slowly fade away i'm gonna pretend that i'm fine because if no one knows the truth,i lose nothing and it won't hurt that much sometimes when i look in the mirror, and wish i could see nothing You make it sounds so easy to be alive...but tell me,how am i going to live,when everything inside of me has died you know you've become dead inside when the pain doesn't bother u anymore. How many times will i break till i shatter?
What do you live for when all hope is lost?