The way a book is closed,
And the pages are shut, unread.
It's for the best, as the feeling is suppressed.
My pain is at rest, my wrists don't have to bleed;
For this, for you.
A heart beat skipped,
For everything moment I've missed.
Where are you baby?
I am so sorry for how it's turned out.
Dread shadows over me, my soul.
Deepening me into a shallow darkness;
I cannot escape, where do I go?
I miss you,
But I mustn't, I shouldn't.
Don't hide from this you loser!
I close my eyes and hope the humming stops.
Those voices, they vibrate in my ears.
Will they ever leave?
Go, go!
Go away and leave me.
"Operator give me the police,
Maybe a ambulance too.
I'm about to kill myself."
I take a pill and hope I won't hurt any longer.
But misery won't leave when you just plaster it,
You have to heal it, mend it.
Oh where is the fairness in this world?
I puncher myself, with a knife, a blade.
Anything I can find.
Where are you?
Where am I?
Little do I know, the pain I'm causing myself,
The people around me.
But do they even care?
I'm calling out an S.O.S
Though somehow I do not want help.
My eyes appear dry for now,
But it never ends, I cry inside all the time.
Tears are so simple to produce, the pain isn't.
Blood is to pour, I know it, I feel it inside me.
My veins are filled with hatred,
So much of it, that it will soon kill me and take over.
I feel I've gone insane.
If I were to shout out everything,
Would this all just leave?
No.
I know so, because thats what I've been doing.
Blowing out the candle only puts out the flame,
The candle remains standing, as do the Dread.
Hands over ears; Please stop.
I beg for them to leave but they do not.
Who am I?
Who am I?
Even I don't know.
Dance to the music, I say.
And drink it all down.
Nothings the matter when your drunk.
Get drunk, get drunk and lie down baby.
The pain will leave you but return in the morning..
Holding up this mask to my eyes all this time,
I can't keep this anymore.
So much charades, so many games to be played.
I'm not an actress, I'm a writer.
And I want this to end.
This pain,
This thing you call life.
All gone.
Leave me.
Or so help me, I'll end it myself.
