Theres Nothing Left

I feel like im stuck,
somewhere.
Like a spirit that wont pass over
And im trying to rid myself of the love
i feel for you, but i cant.
Its like your embedded in me.
If i could tear you out of my heart with my hands
i would.
But I cant...
I close my eyes tight
because i dont want to miss you,
dont want to face the sorrow of my sorrow,
But then i open them in tears.
Hot stinging tears that choke me
to the point i cant breathe.
You linger in me
Yet you kill me.
It feels like your dead
only your not.
I feel like im grieving
without a grave,
Nowhere to go
Nowhere to take it.
Its like someone drew a curtain
across the sky,
And all thats left...
is
hurt.
And all that remains is a "someone"
thats meant to be me,
Someone lost.
Theres nothing left.

*Dec 2009"