I've gotten to the point these days where nothing seems to go the way i would want it to go.
the bumps in the roads are getting bigger and bigger.
the people i once had are now leaving.
these people were the people i looked up to more than myself.
they helped me be the person i became.
yeah i know that sounds stupid yet it's the very truth.
i never once was this self-confident 17 year old.
i was always low on myself , always found a way to bring myself down.
but these amazing people helped me figure things out helped me bring a smile to my face but now it's fading, fading far aways to the point where i don't have it anymore.
these past years and months i went through hell and back.
lost my mom , she died way too young.
even though i never knew her she was apart of me that i never knew i had.
i completely lost it when she died. my emotions were overwhelming.
then i been in and out of relationships like crazy since her death.
never had a good one really my longest was 4 months.
but he cheated on my six times.
I'm not expecting you guys to feel sorry for me ,
nothing like that at all.
I've just gotten to the point where my life is complete hell and i have no idea what to do.
if anyone knows anything i can do to pick myself up off the found please tell me.
