But I ...

Sitting here
wanting to cry
but I can't

for it was time
but yet
it still hurts

reflections
heated moments
tender times

emptiness inside
holes to fill
but I won't

sick pup
enjoy the rush

was it
worth it

I'm spinning
out of control

going through
the motions
zombie state

block it out

the noises
on the phone
ringing
in my ears

but I
can't forget

email going home
miss ya
call me

whose home

caught
that's why
you struck

but I
won't fall
again