I have found the repair man i was looking for
he fixed me up like brand new
and i was able to love again
and to function better
and i was happy
until the day of love
the day i was going to be fully happy
and at peace
the that i proposed
to the one i wanted to live with till i died
the day was February 14 2010
i had proposed at 2pm and i was happy
with the way things were going
there were no lie between us
and we were better then before
then the sky fell black as did i
at 10pm he told me more truth
but this truth i didn't want to hear
he said " I don't feel them same way that you feel "
my body could not handle that truth
my bodies eyes cried and cried and cried
he was sorry for hurting me but
i was sorry
that i let my walls fall down
it hurts me to want him still
it feels wrong for me to love him still
my walls went back up on February 15 2010
and i am once again broken
this time more then before
now i know to not trust my falling walls
nor t trust the one that makes them fall
i shall never allow that to happen again
i will fix myself
this time
n help
no repair man
and no tape
just no more true love
only love
its better
