Secretly Insane

Open your eyes, please just for me
I want you to notice, just to see
How do you see the pain?
Inside I am secretly going insane

Hints of my misery cover me inside and out
The physical pain makes me want to shout
The wounds will never let me let go,
Of all the memories and present woe

My mind won't let me focus anymore
Just to walk straight is a huge chore
Innocent happy people die everyday
For the next one to be me is something I pray

I don't blame anyone for me being like this
I wish living was something I could just dismiss
However, its not as easy as it may sound
My mom would blame herself if I fell to the ground

Normally people feel better after a good cry
But what if your like me, and all your tears are dry?
What about when your out of words say?
I can't stand being here one more day

People say that life is really, really though
But I didn't know it was gonna be this rough
I didn't know someone could feel so much pain
Everything is lost, and there is nothing to gain

Writing doesn't even block out my bad thoughts
My now heart sits numbly as my body rots
Death crosses my mind countless times
Because of my sadness my wrists are covered with lines

So for now I'll fight for my life for people who "care"
But in my real times of need, they will never be there
If it was up to me I would have been long gone
But for them I still sit here tonight, dreading the dawn