Your fault

#i wrote this poem after going on face-book and me being bored, i decided to have a look to see if i had any relatives i hadnt added yet n much to my amazement i found at least 20 or more on there...you see i come from an aboriginal background well my mums side of the family and for 16 years my dad abused me and told me lies that my mum didn't want me and so on that when i finally moved to my mums i was shocked to find out that i had so many cousins n uncles and nephews who i didn't know bout n just felt inspired to write bout it..#

I cant believe it,
So many people i dont know,
So many people whos faces look so familar,
All these years,
Thinking i wasnt wanted,
Hated and screamed at,
For 16 years,
By those who claim to love me,
When in reality i had so many that would love me,
That did even when they didnt see me,
Speak to me,
Who wouldnt scream,
Wouldnt curse,
Now the only one i hate is you,
The ones who hide my other side,
Who cut all those who loved me off,
Who couldnt stand to have anyone else love me other than them,
Dont you dare claim that you didnt it for my own well being,
That they never wanted me,
It was your fault,
Your fault i felt alone,
Just Wanting me to hate them,
But i dont,
I just wish i had of had a choice,
That i knew more,
But i have my chance now,
cause im gonna be myself,
listen and learn,
Meet them all,
And smile cause you lost me,
I'm never coming back,
Now you must live with the conquences,
All because of your stupid desisions!