Dad

I remember the days you were here
i remember the times we used to share
i remember the years i watched you shine
i remember when i was 3 and being on daddy's shoulders was as high as could be.
now I'm 16 and remember that day,
the day when everything seemed fine
until i got that phone call in the morning light
i remember wanting to run and hide
thinking this cant be true! you cant be gone.
i waited for my mother to pick me up
the look on her face was painful enough
i remember going to the hospital to be with you one last time
when i walked through those doors a dead body was all to find.
i remember crying thinking no, i remember my mother hugging me with tears in her eyes.
but i knew all my thoughts of god were gone.
i remember being alone with you one last time i kept repeating i love you numerous times.
daddy no please with tears in my eyes.
i remember the funeral all so well
my speech of heartache i tried to tell
the music, the pictures of our life which seemed forever in my mind.
i remember people crying behind me, feeling there stare as i walked on by.
i remember my aunt come to give me the car
i remember hugging the car thinking this is all i have left and in that moment it felt like a bullet in my heart.
today as i visit his grave i say you'll never see what i become, who ill marry or see me graduate. a great man was taken away at 43, his life of heartache and pain gone but mine still the same. its been a month a month of hardship. i wish to god that he had told me he loved me one last time because my dad was a hero and my inspiration. this is to you daddy. i love you n i miss you.