We live in seperate worlds

My grandma says you love me,
But your actions show no love or compassion.
you call every couple years maybe...
say sorry and make empty promises.
Then stop contact within the next week
and I know I won't be hearing from you for a couple more years.

You have never been much good for me,
Never showed up on a birthday,
Or senior band recognition night,
On Christmas or at my graduation.

You do not pay child support
so me and my mom fall further into debt,
As you fall harder into the use of drugs
and the possibility of going to jail gets closer.

I remember the last time I saw you,
Before you came in, I thought I wasn't mad.
I was being mature
and was ready to forgive you.
But when you walked in,
hatred and disgust settled in.
I felt suddenly like a child
and every pain seemed so recent and fragile.

I don't deserve any of your lies and neglect.
I deserve a father that would love me til' the end.
And be there on special occasions in my life and just on plain simple days.
I will probably always crave a father's love and affection,
but I don't want you to ever come back into my life.

I have all I need.
I have a wonderful mother.
Everyday I see more love and strength in her.
She has always been there and that will keep me strong.
So, there's not much more to say about you,
We live in separate worlds even though we live in the same town, and that's how it shall remain.