Dear Big Sister

*Letter following "Dear Little Sister"

Dear Big Sister,

How could you leave me,
in a world full of such pain?
I cry so much for you,
I can never be the same.

Why didn't you tell me,
how hurt you were inside?
I could've ran away with you,
instead you had to die.

I wish you talked to me,
told me you were blue.
I don't think you understand,
how much I need you.

I miss you so damn much,
and you will never know,
how much you hurt me,
the day you had to go.

You were my older sister,
I always looked up to you.
So what does this mean,
that I am supposed to do?

You told me not to cry,
but these tears, they never stop.
Even after I wipe away,
every little drop.

Remember those pills you used,
To fall asleep one last time,
I have another bottle full,
Now I'll commit the crime.

I will swallow all of them,
just like I know you did,
And so now, once again,
I will follow my big sis.