Never To Win

I'm sick of crying
I do it every night
The only thing that will stop it is
If you held me tight

I feel like I am losing you
Through my negative thoughts
You don't know how I feel
Is how I retort

I love you with everything I have
It brings me to destruction
I feel as though I am killing myself
This is only the introduction

I know that i am hurting you
This is hurting me too
The thing is i refuse to let go
I'm just so in love with you

You say you see beauty in me
All i see is despair
Ive broken your heart so many times
Its now beyond repair

A simple sorry isn't enough anymore
Ive just caused so much pain
There is just so much
I have yet to explain

I really want to change myself
So i can stop hurting you
But i have so many insecurities
I don't know what to do

I'm trying my best to please you
But all i do is fail
I'm going through desperation
My true feelings have yet to prevail

The thing you don't see
Is you have hurt me too
I guess we are even
But how do i know this is true?

I don't know how much hurt i have caused
But i know how much you have caused me
Should we let go of each other
Should we let each other be free

But i love you the thing is
Do you love me?
You say you do
But you don't show me, i never see

I don't know what to do anymore
So I am giving in
Do what you want, cause now i can see
I will never win