Lets talk
This time i will listen
So much to say
Mostly I'm trying not to cry
I don't want to destroy another relationship
I will try to keep my issues separate
Don't ask my any questions
I don't have the answers
I'm sorry for what i been doing
I'm sorry for how i am acting
I want you to know the other me
I want you to understand what made me this way
I want you to believe in me and love me
I want you so stay as everyone else leaves
In my world it is black
I don't see any hope
My dreams are no longer a reality to me
I cry, I scream,I fight,I hurt
Sometime;s i don't know what is controlling me
I cut everyday
My cuts help me to be alive
I keep secrets
Its better that way
Years now
I been like a ball
Bouncing place to place
Things wont slow down
Each new thing
I feel like the ball is loosing air
And ready to pop
That ball is myself
It gets harder
One thing i learned is not to trust
I start to talk
Then another person walks away from me
I cant keep taking this
I never know if things are gonna be OK
Some people keep telling me not to shut down
But I shut down a long time ago
I am struggling from the past
It is taking my life away
I'm not sure where i belong
I'm really sick of trying
Everyday, every night
I sit alone
I don't want any friends
I just cant seem to be normal
I messed up my life
Its not to late for you
You can stay or you can go
Don't make me promises
Don't tell me you care
Cuz i don't believe in life
I don't want to be here
I go through so much everday
I'm trying to fight this alone
Iam so angry
I love my family
But there different from others
At the same time i hate them
They all hurt me so much
I just want to cry
I just want to yell
I remain silent
Again its better this way
I'm like this because of them
Maybe if they didn't hurt me
I would of had a chance at life
So its your choice
Just please don't give up on me so easily
I know I'm difficult
