This Destruction

Wrapped up in deceptive lullabies.
Keep me hidden from those perfect blue eyes.
Not sure how much more of this I can take.
When from this nightmare will I wake?

All smiles and laughter with friends during the day,
And then only tears and sad thoughts once they've gone away.
I don't want to be like this anymore.
How much longer must I endure?

The hurt sets in when I'm alone.
Takes all my strength to not reach for the phone.
Oh, all the things I wish I could say.
Maybe then I would be okay.

But weeks ago, he made up his mind.
Trying to change it would only waste time.
Friends is what we are and friends is what we'll stay.
If only, then, I did not feel this way.