Rape, age 14

We were laying there
It was late on Friday night
My friend called me and asked how i was
I said I was all right

I sat up and looked at you
Put the phone on the table
I didn?t know that this would be the last time
I would be emotionally stable

It was when we began to talk
That you started to criticize
This is when my love for you
Began to minimize

As we started to fight
You through me upon the floor
I looked at you in disbelief
I screamed I CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE

That is when you began
To look me up and down
I didn?t understand what you were thinking
Your face was an unreadable frown

Then you ran over to me
And grabbed me by the legs
That?s when I tried to run to the door
But your hands were gripping me as strong as lead

You started ripping off my shirt
My bra and my pants
At this point I again tried to break free
But he told me, you know you can?t

You tied me to the bed posts
I wanted to be free
You just slapped me across the face
And said it would be better if I would just agree

You slammed yourself inside of me
As I winced in pain
I thought that all was lost
That there was nothing i could possibly gain

You cut me with your pen knife
When I would begin to cry
When I saw the bruises forming one by one
I thought I was going to die

When you had finished with me
It was quite late at night
He said too bad when your friend called
You said you were all right

He through me out of his door
Bleeding from the pain
I left there feeling like id done something wrong
That I must now live a life in shame

It took me a long time to tell anyone
My heart had been taken
I looked upon my social life
As utterly forsaken

But now I look upon my scars
The bounds that strapped me to his bed
I remember the gripping hands
That held me as strong as lead

I now know, after looking back
After all the nights and crying so long
That it was not me
But him who was in the wrong

The memory still cuts me everyday
Like that penknife that slit my skin
But I know I must carry on in life
And in it, I will win