I know now

I know now how she was feeling
when I caused all that pain
I know now how much love she had for me
when I messed up everything
I know now the pain she had
cause now I feel the same pain
she once had because of me

Everything about her is all around me
Everything around me makes me think about her
her room that i live in now
her bed that i sleep in now
her locker which is my locker now
her pillow that she made lays nexts to me
and that rainbow dog she painted for me
with our initials on the back of it
I can't even look at it without crying my eyes out

I feel so dumb for letting my heart fall for her
I wasn't lying to her when i told her i loved her
I wasn't lying when i told her i would change
I wasn't lying when I promised not to hurt her

I broke that promise to her
and I failed changing the person I am
but I never stopped loving her

She flows through my veins like poison...