Better monster/ serial killer/ than hero

Why try to be hero if im better villian
lying to myself of saving the day
when i was meant to condemn the way
at every turn serial killer and monster were in-brained
giving in to the horror inside me and never seeing the light of day
i was never good at being normal or human
i think i was suppose to be more sadistic and villian
saying goodbye to the possible world of dreams and facing reality
why be hero if im better villian