We cant be friends no more?!!??!?!

The only friend i had
now everything has gone bad
i cant be friends with u no more
thats what Ur mom and dad
had told me

now the only thing
i lived for is gone
my tears sting

I'll pass by u
everyday in school
but if only u knew
how much i feel like a fool

i didn't know Ur parents read Ur email?!?
so they know every detail
and now they say
that they don't want me to have contact with u
and the only reason is cause my life's so gray

they know how sad i am
damn
they know about me getting raped
they know me cutting
and how my body-i scraped

now its over
the only thing god gave me
is gone
and now i sit here with none

no friends
thinking bout all the ends
no family

now i don't know
should i just go?
cause Ur the only reason I'm living
and the happiness that u had bin giving

now its all stress
god was who i used to bless
but now...i cant..wow!?!

i didn't image this day would come
and i would sit here
cant feel my body its numb
but now..now its all clear

we cant have contact no more
the one i adore
we cant be friends no more
Ur parents thought i ruined Ur life
but think--it was cause of YOU that i held that knife
you ruined mine
and thats something I'll never be able to define

now this is how I'll put it...

I'll leave now
cause there's no way i could do it without u..
i ask my self how??
I'll die
and all i have to say now is goodbye

~I'm 13.. please comment my poem~