I never knew how difficult this would be
To die to self
Looking all about me
Death to the desires
Desires such as family,friends, games, my will, coloring skills,etc.
Death is all around me
I wish I could receive the peace that I so hope for
But that is all I can do, hope
I never had a family in actuality
Never have I had a mother or father
They weren't capable
Felt neglected & abused, everyday
Still no compassion, at 27 yrs old
This is all for God's purpose for me, I know
As painful & struggling with God this is
The only way is up
All the way up to the only father
I've somewhat known
That father is my Father God Almighty
He said that "though your father and mother abandon you"
He'd be my own
How great He is
How sad if He ever lets me go
Just because I act the way I do
Due to circumstances
There's nobody else that would take me in
There's nowhere else I'd rather be
His will is going to come to pass
I'll be glad to die
For Him who died for me
How many of you fee
