I try to hold onto the words you say,
But they rebound and drift away,
You're in a different sphere from me,
Clouded over, your face I barley see,
My voice is screaming to etch itself upon an ear,
So loud inside, Its you I can no longer hear.
The friction's rub is too much against my skin,
Between myself and this world I now live in,
If I could just scrap and peel it all away from me,
And find some space to think and breathe free,
But my lungs won't give me air's flow stream,
Instead all is consumed by my inward scream.
Roaring up into my inner ear, it steals all sense away,
Drying out every single tear, in vibrant cold and grey,
Ice shock stabs the chest leaving it gasping in it's wake,
Glaciated veins flow from the hearts radiating quake,
Body convulses to ward off the frigid blood,
Despondency consumes in a rushing flood,
Nauseated will, tumbles, and takes you to the floor,
Electrocuting waves of pain exasperate the core.
I can feel my strength regress,
As I choke on every breath,
All I know is the cold inside,
A cold that won't let me die,
And the energy flow streaming,
Empowering my silent screaming.
~ How I envy thee, Beautiful and still - lifelessness,
If it only could be, bestow on me your kiss caress,
Engage in me the will to strike the flesh,
And soon after the bodily thresh,
A dark and placid dream,
To end my silent scream.
