My death

I hurt everyone i care about

waste of space i think

i'll hold the gun to my head
,
how can something so small,

make such a big impact,

My mind recalls my life,

you know, like they do in movies,

childhood, growing up,

love and pain, Happy, sad

My palms are sweaty,

my finger presses down on the trigger,

three... two... one..

i collapse to floor in the middle of the room,

briefly i see the blood and hear my cry,

every thing's going black,

one last thought, one last memory,

laughter just laughter, the happy moments,

giggling with friends,

Laughing till i feel like bursting,

Hugging with my mum and dad,

feeling like i belong,

when i was truly happy..

so be happy for me now, because

I'm going to a better place where

i can be truly happy once again..