Muh-My Stutter.

I huh-have-have a stutter.
An-and-and it hurts
when people they laugh at me,
simply for the way i-i talk.
y-you-you see,
i talk differentl-differen-differently
than they,
who stand and stare at me mouth,
sh-surely wondering,
why why why the just words don't come out.
Th-they don't understand,
how much it hurts, to have them
laugh,
and nuh-not like me,
because of the way eh-iee-i talk.
I have a vast nuh-knowledge of words,
be-bebe--because i have-hu-have to try,
and find words,
that make it by my lips,
without p--p-----pause or re-pa-pation.
and i want to tell them,
th that i go home and cry,
because i cu-can still s-s-see them looking at me,
a- a- as if i where a f-f-freak.
i i i i i cant stop myself from repeating,
all the random words.
''and an and an and and'' is particular hard for me,
it just keeps slipping up my throat.
i cant keep it down, and i say it at-almost fifty times.
i know you cant tell
but i go home an-and cry,
for all the words, that they p-pass me by.
i just, i just wish i could talk,
and nuh.. not have them stair
with all their unasked questions, hanging in the a-
air
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A NOT SO FUN FACT ABOUT ME-

I have a stutter, i can not control it and most people in my year don't like me because i talk differently, my speech pattern is very different from theirs, and i know a lot of worlds. because i love words, (i read a lot) and i like to find words i wont trip over and repeat, and oddly enough, big words don't repeat as often with my stutter. the people who don't like me use the speech thing as another reason not to like me. The sad thing is, it makes me cry. i go home and i cry, and when i sob, it start-stops-start-stops, almost mimicking my stutter. and that just makes it so much worse. I cant control it and i try to ignore it, but when people point it out, or stair at me like I'm dumb, it makes it worse.

Just so you know.