I feel disappointed
what happened is not what I wanted
its not how it went down in my head
now it seems that I'm haunted by what could have been
the whole room starts to spin and I feel the cuts on my skin
I know that its a sin but I don't even know where to begin
a tear falls to my chin but I'm still wearing my grin
just watching life pass me by I really don't want to cry
I don't know why I just want to lie down and die
tired of all the lies but if I tell the truth you wont reply
want to grow wings and fly just disappear into the sky
all I ever hear is goodbye so I there's no point in me trying
I'm sick of all the tears but my future is so unclear
I have no more cheer as I smear on another smile
meanwhile feeling like a pile of trash
how long is this empty feeling going to last
until I'm beaten into nothing but a pile of ash
