Tearing at the limbs (oct 14,2010

I feel as tho I am lost in the forest of nightmares and bad luck.

It's dark and I've been running all night.

My feet ache , my eyes tired, I lost my very voice from all my crys and screams.

I seek the moon for some sense of direction, but I have no map.

My body is weak, I feel like giving up, but I hear the sounds of the haunting voices screaming for me.

I tell myself If i just keep running they wont catch up.

But as i get deeper into the forest of this nightmare, i cry inside, i push forward with all my might.

But they tell me lies, that keep me going, I wait for the moment that I lose my step and tumble to the ground in exhaustion.

Ive heard the lies before but i threw myself to them, no matter what, only for me to be torn to bits again and again.

I blame myself for all my faults, for never trying enough.

I blame myself for being to careing, loveing, understanding.

And as I try to get up from the cold emptyness i feel from the earth itself, my mind races with thoughts and regret.

Tears well up, as the voices grow louder, as if right next to me, i scramble to get up and run once more....