Broken Creativity

I'm scared
Afraid to write
Hesitant to speak
Unsure beyond this feeling

To release everything
One big cataclysmic burst
Seems inevitable
But I fight it

Silencing myself
Tasting liberation slowly
Tapering my own creativity
Breaking my own spirit

Rebirth found one day
In the crumpled papers of frustration
Strewn around my life
Hiding in the darkness