Never There

I want this pain to end
I want to be happy without him again
I never should have let him in
It was his beautiful smile, a deadly grin
I can't take the games, the agony and rage
I feel all this towards someone who I thought was real
I want to smile for real this time
I want to find a sincere guy
One who isn't going to break my heart
Enjoy the sight of me falling apart
I don't deserve this
I gave him my all
I tried so hard for what?
Nothing at all
This hurts so much
Pain I can not bare
But I guess I'm not losing much when his love was never there.

3.15.2011