What If

Everyone's heard of the golden rule right,
Of course they have,
But that doesn't mean that they actually go by it,
I've been called many things in my life,
But the most hurtful thing is to be made fun of for being overweight,
Especially when your friends notice it and sometimes judge you for it,
I don't know how many countless hours I've lost dreaming and wishing that I was skinny,
That I didn't have theses ugly hideous stretch marks on my body,
The what ifs are killing me,
What if I just stopped eating,
Would it make me how I want to be,
What if...what if...what if...
I swear those two words will be the death of me, there are times that I don't even want to leave my house,
I've stopped talking to a lot of people,
I'm even embarrassed to be around my family,
I keep telling myself that I will go on a diet,
But I keep putting it off,
Someone please help me.