Today

Today i decided to smile
not a single tear to be shed
not to show my pain
to make it seem as if I'm okay

Today i thought positively
no bad things
no suicide
not a single piece of negativity

Today i pretended to be happy
to show that i can be strong
to show that I'm not hurting
to prove that I'm okay

Today i saw you
laughing like nothing was wrong
smiling as if you did nothing
looking when there was nothing for you

Today i wrote a letter
asking why you hurt me
thinking of how much i missed you
fading as the words appeared

Today i laughed
not fake
accepting that you're not here
feeling better since writing

Today i fell
this boy so cute
so innocent
so unaware of the world

Today i decided to forget you
the good times we have shared
the kissed; the laughs
to the very last tear i cried