What I do now is up to me
I need to feel pain
I need people to see
What purpose I gain
I look at the person across from me
Looking back at me I see nothing
Looking through what It was meant to be
Holding my arm out, crying
Razors is my best friend
My only friend that is true
Will the future end
Or will it hold through to you
Still I cut and not knowing to stop
The pain feeling so good
As I watch my blood drop
Made me feel where I stood
It gained my happiness back
The only thing I could ask for
And now I start to see the fading black
For I see the dark door
My thoughts are, should I go
Or should I stay
Then I feel hands lifting me up slow
crying, "I love you, please stay today"
He kisses me on my forehead
Kisses my open wound, blood on his lips
Lays me on the bed
And the razor slips
He looks at me with understanding and love
He's my everything, I held him
He was the one whose with me, watching right above
I stayed with him tonight as the lights dimmed
